So, as the girls discussed their schedules in voices that were just as loud as mine trying to explain directions, I lost it and said so. I said if I heard one more word about their schedule I would lose it even further. I said the break didn't rejuvenate me--it irritated me even more that they couldn't follow simple instructions. I said that we were going to focus on following simple directions since that was a skill they showed me they had yet to master.
Then we had a snow day yesterday, which honestly wasn't much of a help as I was planning on yesterday to get some things done.
Last night I had a dream that I was one of those kick ass teachers. They're tough, they're structured to a T, but they are respected and the students learn. Then, I woke up and realized I am just a moody teacher who loses her cool and can't seem to translate that into a teachable moment. And I'm not sure I'll ever cross that bridge kick ass.